At times, I have been very transparent with my faith and my lack of it, it being my faith.
I have both offended and uplifted with my words and at times, my actions.
Thus is the walk of faith.
Maybe, your walk of faith is different.
Maybe you do not even have faith, a faith, any faith, or the slightest idea of faith.
You have no mountain top nor valley experiences to speak of.
If that is the case, and you have walked a constant and level path in your life and faith, then I unfortunately cannot relate, nor can most, who truly pursue God.
If you have lived a life of restlessness and have felt that God Himself was squeezing the very life out of you, then I can relate.
Note the references to mountains and valleys throughout the Bible.
There are many.
People of strong faith were up and down and up again, including Christ.
Throughout these past years, one thing has been constant and it had nothing to do with me.
It was the sustaining, the “manus dei”, Latin, for the “mighty hand of God”.
God is big on touch.
Christ touched all the time.
He touched, He held, He was physical in his reaching into the lives of others.
Medical students are taught to touch their patient because much healing comes through human touch.
In his book, God Can’t Sleep, Dr. / Pastor Palmer Chinchen, describes the hand of God this way, “I can’t think of a better feeling than knowing God’s massive hand is on your life. I want to remind you today that when life is troubled, God holds on.”
Over the past five years, as I have often gone to dark places seeking the light and truth of God, I found that God’s hand, never let go, though at times, I was struggling to get free of His.
His grip was too tight for me to pull away.
His love for me was too strong to escape.
And His plan for my life was, and remains, far from over.
I can now see the light at the end of the “proverbial” tunnel.
His hand and the faith and determined prayers of others have sustained me.
My best and brightest days are ahead of me.
“Your right hand upholds me, and your gentleness makes me great.” Psalm 18:35
“Even there Your hand will lead me, and Your right hand will lay hold of me.” Psalm 139:10