It sparked my interest enough to listen to every unintentional word he delivered.
It wasn’t what he didn’t say.
It wasn’t what he did say.
It was what he did.
What he said?
He made this big bombastic declaration of his beliefs.
What he did?
He immediately took his right hand and ran it down his nose, as though to scratch an itch, or to wipe off a bead of sweat.
I turned to the person sitting next to me and said, “He does not believe what he just said.”
The person looks back and me, “What are you talking about?”
“He went to his nose with his hand.”, I said. “It is a body language indicator that he does not believe what he just said.”
So I thought then, as I do this afternoon.
What causes our faith to fade?
If it can at all.
What circumstances make our memory grow faint as to what God had done in our lives.
Our heart to not beat faster when we speak of God.
Why do we question what we initially believed?
In my case, I routinely question my foundational beliefs to solidify and clarify my initial decision to follow Christ.
I tear it apart and put it back together again, and see if it still looks the same.
Am I as innocent now at fifty five years old as I was at seven when I declared my faith publicly?
No I am not.
Yet the innocence of that experience has only grown stronger and brought me closer to him.
God’s love does not fade away after time.
Neither does the love of the human heart.
God’s love only gets stronger and brings one closer.
So does the love of the human heart.
God’s love has no distinction between right and wrong.
Love is blind as they say to the human heart.
We can recall our heart felt moments.
We can tear them apart piece by piece.
We can analyze.
We can “what if’ them to death.
We can attempt to walk away from it.
When you tear it all apart, and then put it back together again, if it only gets stronger with time, and distance does not lessen the need for another.
Then you have experienced something that will never diminish.
It’s much like faith.
You may doubt it for a moment, but you still want to spend 1,000 years living it out.