What if someone were to pour out their soul to you?
Just totally empty themselves.
Would you stare at them with your mouth wide open?
Would you already be considering the first person you could tell?
Or would you, stand there, humbled by the trust that the other person had placed in you?
One’s heart can grow heavy with confessions not offered.
One’s heart can grow even heavier when holding in trust the confessions of another person.
At times, when someone has trusted me enough to open their life up to me, I have assured them of my discretion with this statement, “I will take this to the grave.”
Is that any different, and yet, at a level not easily comprehended, when we lay out our heart before God?
When we confess our moments of weakness to Christ?
Christ says to us, “I will take this to the grave.”
And he did.
He took on all of our confessions.
He took on all of our mistakes, misdeeds and messed up lives.
He took them to the grave.
I know that God’s forgiveness is difficult to understand.
Words can not fully and adequately describe how God takes our confessions and produces anything of worth from our admissions of sin.
Don’t withhold from God a confession that you believe He can not forgive.
In my own confessions, I find strength through the admission of my weakness.
In December of 2012, which even with the passing of my mother earlier that same year, I consider 2012 to be one of the greatest years of my life.
It was a year when I came to understand God’s love at a deeper level and what He expects from us.
How He believes in us and expresses it through those we come in contact with.
And how God can take our daily confessions and produce something so precious it defies description.
But in December of 2012, I was looking for a quote I could use as my basis of faith for 2013.
To use as words of encouragement on the back of my personal stationary note card.
It is from the writings of Saint Augustine.
His well known writings known as Confessions.
These are the words that became a foundation for my life for 2013 and the days since that time.
“For a long time now I burn with the desire to mediated upon Your law, and to confess to You both my knowledge of it and my ignorance of it – the first beginnings of Your light and what remains of my own darkness – until my weakness shall be swallowed up in Your strength. And I do not want to see scattered and wasted upon other things such time as I find free from necessary care of the body, intellectual labour, and the service which either I owe men or do not owe but render all the same.”