Blaise Pascal – “There is a God shaped vacuum in the heart of every man which cannot be filled by any created thing, but only by God, the Creator, made known through Jesus.”
I feel like, having written words here for some time now, that I should perhaps give you a little piece of my story. My hope is that it could possibly help someone in need.
I grew up in church. I have been taught the Word since I was a child.
I, however, did not completely understand it. I doubt I ever will.
When I came of age, I joined the service. I, like many generations of Brands before me, went out into the world, ready to do my part.
I eventually learned my vice. I found that drinking helped me to forget my problems. One vice eventually led to several.
The problems were beyond my control. My choosing a crutch for my problems was not.
You try to numb the pain of your issues, but once you come back down, the pain returns tenfold.
Fast forward a while.
I get an opportunity to meet people from a friend’s church. By this point, the idea of church is a sour subject.
I was just going to go, eat some food, and pay it no further attention.
It truly is funny when God has plans contradictory to yours. You never win those arguments.
His influence in my life began to rekindle. From that point, I no longer felt the need to numb anything. I, for the first time in a very long time, completely accepted who I was. I was filled with a passion I still have to leave my mark on this earth for Him.
There were many people at that gathering that I still do not know. They do not know how much they influenced my life. I saw a group of individuals who were slow to judge, but quick to reach out. Those individuals probably saved my life. I can never thank them enough. They probably would have no idea what I am thanking them for. But God would know. So would I.
I tell this story for anyone who feels lost. Anyone who, like I did, feels that gap inside that can’t be filled by drinking. It can’t be filled by drugs. It can’t be filled by any earthly vice.
Only God can fill it.
I fought that inevitable conclusion for what seems like forever. But I am a man. I can admit when I am wrong.
Vaya con Dios