Maybe you feel at times like I did today. That you have pretty much given up everything to follow Christ, yet, the deeper you look, the more you find that needs to be given up, unforseen things, attitudes, motivations, etc.
And then I think what have I gained from all this that I have given up.
Peter felt this same way. In fact, he said to Christ, “We have left everything to follow you! What then will be there for us?”
A fair question. Of course we know that we gain Christ, an eternal promise and so much more. But yet we still give up, give up and give up.
Today, I was wrestling with this in my mind. “Why God, must we seemingly give up so much?”
And I found my answer on Facebook. Imagine that…
Isaac Freeman had posted a long quote and it was both convicting and inspiring. Once I read it, I asked Isaac where it came from. He did not know the exact source. And then a friend of Isaac’s, Joe Pirosch gave some insight. It was from the Civil War era. So much loss, heartache, heartbreak and loss. The words haunted me for the rest of the day.
I will leave them with you now. It brings the subject of what I have lost and what I have gained into perspective.
Prayer of the Unknown Confederate Soldier – Soldiers Prayer
I asked God for strength, that I might achieve;
I was made weak, that I might learn to humbly obey.
I asked for health, that I might do greater things;
I was given infirmity, that I might do better things.
I asked for riches, that I might be happy;
I was given poverty, that I might be wise.
I asked for power, that I might have the praise of men;
I was given weakness, that I might feel the need of God.
I asked for all things that I might enjoy life;
I was given life, that I might enjoy all things.
I got nothing I asked for but everything I had hoped for.
Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered.
I am, among men, most richly blessed.
At the end of the U.S. Civil War, this prayer was found folded in the pocket of a Confederate Soldier.
I am not sure if I can add anything to this without taking away from it’s beauty.