A friend of mine, Christopher Cummings, aka Buffalo, sent me a text this past week and asked for my thoughts concerning where was Christ the day between his death and his resurrection. Chris is one who enjoys these types of questions as do I. We texted back and forth our thoughts and what we had heard preached during our lives and the scripture references. And we left it at that.
And since today is that day, I have asked God this question today, “Why is it we know so little about You, yet we act like we know so much?” Chris is hungry to know more. I am as hungry and thirsty for God as I have ever been in my life and I want to understand what was
God thinking when I woke up this morning? What is He most concerned with tonight? Those types of things. And it bugs me, irritates me and concerns me that we as American Christians present ourselves as intimately in tune with God and His plan.
In fact, the more I discover, the further I recognize I have to go.
So this afternoon, sitting out on a beautiful spring day I was reading Augustine’s Confessions, Book XI. As I was reading some prepatory notes on Augustine himself it said that in this specific work, Augustine presents the question, “What was God doing before He created heaven and earth?”
As I was reading, the following section screamed at me off the page. It captured where I am today.
“For a long time now I burn with the desire to meditate upon Your law, and to confess to You both my knowledge of it and my ignorance of it – the first beginnings of Your light and what remains of my own darkness – until my weakness shall be swallowed up in Your strength.”
That is beautifully written and stated.
I confess my knowledge and I confess my ignorance.
More than my ability to communicate I want to know God’s heart and what makes it beat faster, what makes God brokenhearted, what brings God incredible joy.
The answer to all three of these questions? You and me.
And our desire to seek Him beyond all else, all others and ourselves.
The Psalmist David wrote it this way. “O God, You are my God; I shall seek You earnestly; My soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for You, in a dry and weary land where there is no water.” Psalm 63:1
You are seeking something today. Be honest. What is it?
Whether you voice it or not, you are seeking it with all your heart, way down deep, deeper than you have the ability to communicate.
What is it?